Right on Track

We had another doctor's appointment on Wednesday and were happy to hear that little Neptune is measuring "right on track." After hearing the ultrasound tech tell us how "fat" she was last weekend, we were somewhat concerned that I might be growing a giant. Doctor says that's not the case and from her measurements, everything looks normal. Phew, no 15-pounder for me!

I've been having a really rough week with work and it all finally came to a head on Wednesday when I busted out crying in front of the doctor. My work has already hired my second maternity-leave replacement after firing the first one a few weeks ago. No, they didn't tell they had done this either. The communication around here leaves a lot to be desired.

While the girl seems nice, she's very slow on picking things up and demonstrated her manipulative side on Wednesday right before I left for the doctor. That made me late for my appointment and made me very upset. Then, the doctor was running 45 minutes late so I had a long time to sit in the waiting room and stew over the replacement's behavior. When the nurse checked my blood pressure, it had gone up from my last appointment but still wasn't considered "high" and was most likely due to the stress of the day. For some reason (I like to blame it on the hormones:)) that just sent me over the edge. I started crying and couldn't seem to stop. It was just too much for me to think that my job was potentially causing harm to myself or to Neptune. The worst part is that all of the stress I was feeling from the job could have been avoided by the management keeping me in the loop as to what was going on and what they expected of me in regards to training the new girl.

I cried in the doctor's office, I cried on the way home, and I cried again when I got home. It felt so good to let it all out but at the same time, I felt like I was having a nervous breakdown. After talking with a friend, I decided to let it all go and develop a better attitude about the whole situation. If they want me to sit here and do nothing for the next 10 weeks, so be it. I will be the best "sit around and do nothing" person you have ever seen! I can't let them get to me and have to protect myself and my daughter. So far, the new attitude seems to be working a little better. I feel a lot less stressed at the end of the day and hope that it's able to continue.